happiness is all i seek.

2009-03-30T13:57:00.003+08:00

a new place to rant.
shifted.

http://odd-ments.blogspot.com

2009-03-30T07:02:00.002+08:00

dance uncensored's finally over!
gosh...
so gonna miss hall dance.
and this is how it ended for me.
=p

thanks to weiting, thomas, kelvin, simyee and liren.
for all the fabulous choreos..
and to the other dancers in RH,
for accompanying me to dance in one way or another!
and also all my frens and supporters who came to watch!
ahha.

it's great when you can perform.

the atmosphere was super hyped up at the last show.
especialli with all our humongous presents for our choreos.
haha.
raffles hall was a bang man.
our dance was entertaining, ain't it?
hope ya guys like it!
i enjoyed dancin it sooooo much too!
=)

anyway i just finished givin my whole room a new clean up!
feels so refreshed now..
muaha.
waitin for breakfast!

2009-03-29T00:06:00.002+08:00

tell me wat did i do wrong.
i'm really lost and confused.
on how to salvage the situation.

is it me?
or is it just that things i'm thinkin too much.
seems lk things are getting loose.
in every single area.

and i'm trying my best to balance other areas in life.

2009-03-27T00:35:00.001+08:00

i'm lost in my own feelings.

2009-03-26T03:42:00.003+08:00

yuko always experiences revelations in the toilet.
while she bathes.

todae it was bout blogging.
i used to think that those who blogged simply were weaklings
who had no where else to vent their frustration and unhappiness
but to just blog it.
i used to detest readin blogs that always blabbered on how upset/depressed one is.

but i realised,
these ppl are actualli the strong ones.
bcos they're willing to admit their weaknesses.
they've identified the wrong things in life
and are brave enough to speak of it.

being able to talk about ur own feelings,
is a step of ur own ego.
to know that u are willing to admit u feel upset,
to talk about it,
is to acknowledge that you are looking for IMPROVEMENTS,
looking for SOLUTIONS to better yourself
after knowing u are weak in that area.

on the other hand,
keeping quiet and thinkin that u're alone,
are just REASONS to justify how sad u are.
plus, it does no justice to those who try to reach out to u.

not like those who've identified and yet keep mum about it.
wats so cool bout being closed in to yourself?

"if you respect me as a fren,
den do me honour and share with me ur troubles.
only then would i know that im ur fren."
this statement i would never forget.

so when u look at ur blog posts,
and it seems/feels/sounds like you are gettin weaker,
fret not.
for u are actualli growing stronger.
unknowingly.

2009-03-25T02:50:00.001+08:00

enjoying dance.
as much as i can for now.
=)

2009-03-24T03:13:00.001+08:00

am i being too complaining?

2009-03-23T14:47:00.002+08:00

have you ever wondered how hard it is
to keep the toilet clean,
when it is a place where we
empty all the dirt on our body in?

it's just so contradicting.

2009-03-23T02:14:00.000+08:00

2009-03-23T02:08:00.003+08:00

i took my bathing stuff and walked into the kitchen...

blk 5 resident: hello..
yuko: hello!
blk 5 resident: what're you doing??haha.
yuko: i'm bathing here.
blk 5 resident: errr....-____-"....(spastic face)
yuko: just kiddin.haha.

how can i ever spout such random nonsense.
gosh.
i can't stand myself.
haha.

thanks to clement for his lunch treat todae!
haha.
and we persevered PA dance practice together again!
though most of the other blastards weren't there.
=)

2009-03-22T00:42:00.003+08:00

Save him

She loves him more
He loves her more,
Seems like they won't ever let each other go,
Laughing and kissing it's a match made in heaven

Behind the rings on their fingers
Imprints the ink deep in the inner
That has stained their souls together now
Stained soul mates forever now

Seems like they've made it to the other side where the grass is greener
And the sky is always blue
And it goes on forever and ever but there is only room for two
Deep at night I'm awakened from my dreams,
Next door, yelling cries mercy she is begging please
"Don't end my life you're all I need and darling I will never leave"

And then she prayed on her knees, she said
"Save him, save him from the hand that he beats me on"
"Save him, save him from the hand that he beats me on"
"Save him, save him from the hand that he beats me on"
"Save him, save him from the hand that he beats me on"

Dark clouds cover her paradise,
She covers her eyes and hides behind enemy lines,
And she walks through the night with her child in her arms
She's thrown back hostage

See twenty years ago when she was just ten years old
Lost in imagination she was left alone
And pops had nothing to let his anger on oh he beat her cold
She used to pray on her knees, she said

"Save him, save him from the hand that he beats me on"
"Save him, save him from the hand that he beats me on"
"Save him, save him from the hand that he beats me on"
"Save him, save him from the hand that he beats me on"

Deep at night I'm awakened from my dreams,
Next door - yelling cries mercy she's begging please,-
"Get up, get up", he brings her to her feet,
And smacks her down till she falls to the ground

And over and over again,
He brings her to her feet till she can no longer stand --
And still the beating never ends
On and on and on it goes

Until he brings out a gun
And says to her "stop crying and bring me my son"
She cries harder and harder
He cries harder and harder

She says "baby please don't do this"
Two shots to her chest
And a blow to his own head
She quickly loses breath and blood rushes to their bed and baby cries his eyes out

She loves him more
He loves her more,
Seems like they won't ever let each other go,
Laughing and kissing it's a match made in heaven

2009-03-21T23:18:00.002+08:00

well done my friends.
evocation aka dance ensemble concert 2009 was a blast-off.
=)

watchin clement dance...
it was, just, amazing.
i almost cried.

2009-03-21T17:21:00.002+08:00

i was at ntuc just now,
and while i was paying for my groceries,
i realised,
its amazing how technology has advanced.

even fruits now are tagged with barcodes.

2009-03-21T02:02:00.002+08:00

eusoff hall productions rawk.
dance, acting, sets was all there.
phew, gd standard i would say.

thanks to mama,
who got a seat for us.

even though it wasn't a realli gd view we had,
but ultimately we went for the discount ourselves.
plus he made the effort to get it for us,
so...i rather appreciate then complain.
thanks mama!

and for dancing with me.
so happily.
=)

clement u poop.
haha.

2009-03-20T16:40:00.000+08:00

2009-03-20T00:41:00.001+08:00

2009-03-19T23:29:00.004+08:00

thanks da,
u taught me sth realli precious in life.

as a christian,
i learnt to appreciate:
THE BEAUTY OF IMPERFECTIONS.

everyone is imperfect,
and thats why christians exist in this world.
bcos we believe that imperfect ppl still lie in this world.

or not, one probably wouldn't allow him/herself to believe in God,
bcos that one thinks perfection is achievable
after correction.
then the part about believing in imperfections,
does not hold true for them.

Right because i believe nobody's perfect,
i learnt to see conflicts in a different way.
That i will notcondemn others on what they shouldn't have done,
but instead think of what i could better myself in for them.

And that's how i learn to open up myself,
By showing love,
and learning to accept it.
Enjoying every single bit of my life making an impact in other's life.
And making sure they make a difference in mine.

That's how we keep relationships growing.
and never depleting.
Constant Effort.

It's a YOU attitude, not I.

2009-03-19T15:43:00.001+08:00

["Don't walk away" by Michael Jackson]
Don't walk away
See I just can't find the right thing to say
I tried but all my pain gets in the way
Tell me what I have to do so you'll stay
Should I get down on my knees and pray

Chorus :
And how can I stop losing you
How can I begin to say
When there's nothing left to do but walk away

I close my eyes
Just to try and see you smile one more time
But it's been so long now all I do is cry
Can't we find some love to take this away
Cause the pain gets stronger every day

Chorus :
How can I begin again
How am I to understand
When there's nothing left to do but walk away

See now why
All my dreams been broken
I don't know where we're going
Everything we said and all we done now
Don't let go, I don't wanna walk away
Now why
All my dreams are broken
Don't know where we're going
Everything begins to set us free
Can't you see, I don't wanna walk away
If you go, I won't forget you girl
Can't you see that you will always be
Even though I had to let you go
There's nothing left to do
Don't walk away

2009-03-19T15:34:00.000+08:00

it's time for me to change my blog address.
haha.
but i need time.
to reconsider a constructive word.
suggestions anyone?

2009-03-19T02:11:00.001+08:00

dance prac's on every night.
project assignments on every few days.
presentations on every week.

i need to push harder.
dun give up yet.

2009-03-18T13:51:00.001+08:00

i seriousli need to start readin more books.
and brush up my english.

2009-03-18T11:06:00.002+08:00

found this fat fact online:

"No carbs after 9 p.m.
Eat no bread, cereal, or pasta until morning.
Extra carbs eaten at night often convert to fat"

TELL THAT TO A BIG FAN OF BREAD,
WHO EATS NORMALLY AFTER MIDNIGHT.

2009-03-18T10:43:00.004+08:00

stubbornness - a killer?
claiming that i'm learning to change,
yet always saying: "i've been brought up to think in this way.."

how can i even push it on others to work harder,
when me myself acknowledge that i don't excel in some areas.
and accept the fact as it is?

it's just...contradictory.

as a matter of fact,
i'm reconsidering my stay.
after reflecting on whether anyone will even need me.

not to hear ppl ask "how about dance?"
but more of a "i'll miss you for blah blah blah..."
bcos i'm not just living for DANCE.
but also for my friends.
of course, my outside friends.

budyy, tell me how.
=)

2009-03-18T03:51:00.001+08:00

classic.

2009-03-16T15:41:00.003+08:00

fine.
i officially scanned thru the list of links.
and deleted those i never contact anymore
or invalid ones.

shortened by almost half.
does this mean that i am losing touch?

2009-03-16T14:58:00.003+08:00

thanks to budyy,
i found a place to dl new display pics for my phone!
its soooooo cooL!

=)

2009-03-16T10:23:00.002+08:00

it's esther's 21st today!
as usual, block 5 celebrated it ytd midnight.

thanks to ah loi who accompanied me out the night,
we managed to scrape some stuff out from the rubbish ideas invented.
while shopping at imm.
haha.

21 egg tarts for esther!
(each person in the blk holding one with a candle)

ok, i guess that was an ultimate shock to my dearest ah girl,
which remained "ohhhh...sobx sobx" as each of us entered.

our bdae wishes for her nicely done up by fiona loi!

does it seem more like my room then the bdae girl's?
haha...i guess i got too comfy with my surroundings.=p

after effect: CHUI-ness.

2009-03-15T23:13:00.001+08:00

i bought all this in 3 hrs of shoppin at bugis 2 days ago.

yummy big bread.

maggi cooked thanks to audrey's rice cooker!

2009-03-13T14:02:00.001+08:00

why does that feeling invade.
losing control.
becoming weak.

2009-03-13T02:16:00.000+08:00

2009-03-12T20:55:00.004+08:00

losing it.
fighting back.
but somehow,
giving in to the inevitable.

what do you call a friend?
someone who says hi and bye everytime u see each other?
that's sth anyone in this world can do.
yet they can be complete strangers.

so frens are not those who simply say & bye.

someone who says he/she will be there when you need them?
that's so cliche.
i wonder if ppl even meant it in the first place.

how do u know whether the person is there for you,
if this person simply tells u "dun worry, i'll be there"
only when u start to chat with him/her?
and most of the other times, whatever remains in btw,
is an unknown.

say,
if some close friend of yours grows distant for a long while,
den someday u guys meet accidentally...
u start to chit chat for a short while...
and ur fren says "dun worry, i'll be here to support you."

how true is that,
when all u know is this close fren of urs grows distant again,
talkin to you only after another long while?
everything repeats.

If you want to be a true fren, show CONSTANT CONCERN.
Only if you treat that person as a true friend,
would you put in the effort to show him/her that you're there all the time.

And i mean, ALL THE TIME.

2009-03-11T18:56:00.001+08:00

watchin "18 jin bu jin" now..
lame, but im kinda enjoyin the lameness.
haha.

jiayou to those who're still havin midterms!
and thanks to fiona for the long talk ytd!
=)

2009-03-11T01:20:00.002+08:00

"When one door of happiness closes, another opens, but often we look so long at the closed door that we do not see the one that has been opened for us."

2009-03-11T01:02:00.001+08:00

what is my worthiness?

2009-03-09T18:27:00.001+08:00

多久了沒有你的消息上一封簡訊是星期幾
又錯過了與你的約定對不起真的不是故意

有時候沒辦法陪著你你總是對我說沒關係
放不下我對妳的任性對不起不該讓你傷心

有時候你會讓讓我儘管我大男人發作
有時候你會裝作不懂默默地留一些空間給我
這些事情其實我一直都藏在心裡

請你原諒我不懂逗你開心請你原諒我不懂聽你的心
回想這過去我學著讓你更安心
別賭氣別任性別放棄說聲對不起

請你相信我我會更加珍惜請你相信我我會呵護著你
小小的愛情卻是我最大的幸運
疼愛的想念的都是妳
請你相信一個這樣的我

請原諒我對不起對不起

2009-03-09T15:22:00.001+08:00

my new prince charming.=)

2009-03-09T03:53:00.003+08:00

INTRODUCING....

the hammies series!

hammie chin-ups.

doleful eyes hammie.

teddy bear hammie.

"i-wan-to-eat-that!" hammie.

glutton hammie.

hungry hammie.

beware...
THE NEXT FEW PICTURES...
made me laugh non-stop.

bombastic hammie no.1!!!!

sunken in fats hammie no.2....

okay fine.crazy hammie no.3...

2009-03-09T02:18:00.001+08:00

"the thing is, most people perceive Christians to be selfish, selfcentered, protective of their church and crazy people who allow themselves to be bound by this ‘imaginary’ God that they proclaim. oh, how foolish they are!

my question to you is, are these people your friends? are they selfish, selfcentered, protective or crazy? the answer is in you."

so well said.

2009-03-09T00:36:00.003+08:00

thanks to liren and ellen for accompanying me to PA ytd!

twin ellen.

nat's performance at night.
NTU HALL 6 at NAFA.

ps: note i took a loooooong time to find that place.

evil queen nattaporn.

my cousin is in the show too!
=)

newest connect group members.hee.

2009-03-06T15:34:00.001+08:00

bloated.

2009-03-06T03:52:00.002+08:00

that day after blast lesson..

"Arhhhh...kicks everywhere!!"

whoa! 6-head monster!

von and i!

erwin being....ERWIN.

jootx!haha.magnified.

2009-03-05T15:24:00.004+08:00

have you ever wondered how vulnerable we humans are?
that we totally lose out to nature
despite triumphing over every other living thing in this world.

too hot the weather, we get skin cancer.
too hot the water, we get throat cancer.

too much of water, we die from overdose.
too much IN water, we die from drowning.

too little of water, we die from thirst.
too little of food, we die of hunger
(maybe some later than the others with lower threshold)

too dirty the air, we die of lack of oxygen.
too much of dirty air, we die of pollution.

TOO MUCH/TOO LITTLE?
which is better?
i guess that's why moderation exists in this world.

when you're still on earth,
born with hands and legs at your usage,
don't leave it in vain.
Nature is the only thing that is undefiable, isn't it?
Then of course, the others are not.
Concentrate on defying all that's going wrong in your life then.

Your assets are not given to you for nothing.
MAKE USE OF IT.

2009-03-05T00:26:00.002+08:00

found a new show to watch!
check it out.

The Legend of Brown Sugar Chivalries

2009-03-03T15:33:00.001+08:00

is it just me?
or is it just that it's fading...

2009-03-03T14:18:00.003+08:00

MUAHAHA.
here are some more random shots.

vote for mr chao qun, if u like him.

mama n i leh-pak-ing in rh studio.

yeah my youtube-dance-partner!

slippers in lt26.

catching wei seng at the bus stop.

haven't seen enough?
go facebook.

2009-03-03T04:25:00.006+08:00

was just fiddling with adobe photoshop.
some products:

1. emo shot.

2. the scary look.

NOW FOR SOME HAPPIER MOMENTS...

3. smiling angels.

4. advertising budyys.

4. simple and nice
.

2009-03-01T21:11:00.003+08:00

pics to update on stuff few days ago.
combined CG meeting at riverwalk!
brought junko there.hee.

junko n i eatin HAPPILY.

don't snatch my food!!!

JJC OG19 outing...marina square.

xiang xiang n chin chin.

hee.

the trio who took cab down.

khai, my best mugging partner aka OGL aka pig fren in JC!

speak no evil, hear no evil, see no evil.
SMELL NO EVIL.

time crisis dudes.

my mushroom soup!

TODAY AT CHURCH...JURONG WEST.

sisters united!

2009-03-01T20:36:00.002+08:00

have u ever wondered how important a few secs could be?
sometimes...
we convince ourselves "it's just a few secs..does no harm..."
but yet, do u realise, that:

these few seconds,
could mean make a whole lot of difference to ur life?

missin that few secs of time...

could cause u to spot ur bus a few secs later,
to react a few secs later,
to run after the bus a few secs later,
to miss the bus by a few secs later
to wait for the next bus arriving a few mins later.

that already makes up a lot of time...

BUT
what if?

who knows,
this bus u took,
may coincidentally miss the first traffic light a few secs later,
stop at every following traffic light a few secs,
n u reach ur destination a few mins later.

And it all adds up to... many minutes.
maybe an hour or so?

THEN,
these few mins that u add up,
may cause u to displease ur boss becos u were not punctual,
to lose ur job becos u were not on time,
to make ur partner angry becos u were late,
to cause ur frens to distrust u becos u always behaved like this.

come on people.
treasure ur time,
plan it well.

What if u only had a few seconds left in ur life.
What would you do?

Would u choose to leave peacefully,
or would you choose to use those few seconds to make a difference to someone else's life?

For me...
if i was left with 10seconds in my life,
i would pick up my phone,
call my mum,
and tell her:
"I LOVE YOU, MUMMY."

2009-02-28T16:05:00.003+08:00

"The difference between the impossible and the possible
lies in a person's determination."

2009-02-26T14:00:00.002+08:00

some random pictures that inspired me.
i hope it does to you too.

"LOVE NEVER FAILS"

The joy in praising The One.

Where he'll lead you to..Trust in him.

2009-02-26T12:06:00.000+08:00

wow.

check this out.
duplication of real life experience?

http://www.celeb4aday.com/Home.html

2009-02-26T00:56:00.002+08:00

saw this on my way to tuition just now..
(taken near jurong east mrt)

had a fun time cookin with clara and audrey that dae.
and miss kwong came to help test the food
=p

sausage gravy.

with macaroni.

2009-02-24T06:48:00.005+08:00

somehow this song still appeals to me.
i used to love it.
and still do.

"My Immortal"

I'm so tired of being here
Suppressed by all my childish fears
And if you have to leave
I wish that you would just leave
'Cause your presence still lingers here
And it won't leave me alone

These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase

[Chorus:]
When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears
And I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have
All of me

You used to captivate me
By your resonating light
Now I'm bound by the life you left behind
Your face it haunts
My once pleasant dreams
Your voice it chased away
All the sanity in me

These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase

[Chorus]

I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone
But though you're still with me
I've been alone all along

2009-02-24T05:18:00.002+08:00

calculating hostel fees vs outside rental fees.
next yr 2009...

hostel fees would be:
$90(single rm) OR $60(double rm) per wk.
$26 (food) per wk.
$25(electricity per sem = $6.25 per mth

ALTOGETHER = $470.25 per mth(single)
OR $350.25 per mth(double)

outside rental fees would be:
$325 per mth (including PUB bills and cooking facilities)

yeah.
i know my decision.

2009-02-24T03:40:00.000+08:00

2009-02-24T02:18:00.004+08:00

一輩子失去了你

一輩子失去了你

夜的精靈遺忘愛的咒語

相愛的人從此兩分離

是命運對有情人不曾憐惜

風月惹不起

你任我憔我任你枯萎

怎麼也無法將天意挽回

你為我落淚更令我傷悲

放不開刻骨銘心的滋味

綿綿不斷的相思化成

這一刻的心碎甜蜜往事段段回憶

只能在夢中尋找和回味

黑夜之中請你打開心扉

等待著我癡情的跟隨

命運對有情人不願憐惜讓愛來相陪

倘若天意注定要你我分離讓愛永相陪

2009-02-24T01:08:00.001+08:00

2009-02-24T01:03:00.001+08:00

2009-02-23T17:13:00.001+08:00

CLASSIC.

2009-02-23T09:52:00.000+08:00

2009-02-22T23:58:00.003+08:00

it's realli fun when u gather with ur frens,
screamin and shouting.
laughin together in one room.

that's what hall is for ain't it?
to gather and have fun.

i'm glad i did so todae.
tryin to treasure as much as i can now.

IT'S NOT ABOUT FINDING THE RIGHT PARTNER IN LIFE,

BUT BEING THE RIGHT PARTNER IN LIFE.

2009-02-22T03:28:00.001+08:00

2009-02-22T02:08:00.005+08:00

happy bdae to jiaying, my fren.

thanks for sharing all the troubles.
thanks for spending so many lovely memories togeda.
thanks for doin things other people wouldn't want to have done.
thanks for all that u've done as a fren.

it was a great party at pan pacific hotel.
saw alot of old frens.

THEME: GLAM vs NERD
(if u know me, u'll know what i chose)

i love the humongous toilet.

jiaying's coming of age!

awww....sweetie pies.

doesn't it resemble a whole load of reporters?

nerdy yuko & glamorous bdae girl.

and my super ultra tall fren liangzhi.

05s30!

the 3 musketeers...
(thanks for being there with me!)

mr yu binghong my best jc classmate!

PROs rawk!

it's funny how some ppl can just sit there and not interact.
when the others are related to u,
somehow or rather,
in one way or another.

inter-links,
you see.

i'm glad my cell group people are super outspoken.
met them for supper in town!

hungry poks!!!

4 "e405"-ians.

another 4 "e405"-ians.

2009-02-21T07:38:00.003+08:00

DOES ANYBODY HEAR HER?

She is running
A hundred miles an hour in the wrong direction
She is trying
But the canyon's ever widening
In the depths of her cold heart
So she sets out on another misadventure just to find
She's another two years older
And she's three more steps behind

Does anybody hear her? Can anybody see?
Or does anybody even know she's going down today
Under the shadow of our steeple
With all the lost and lonely people
Searching for the hope that's tucked away in you and me
Does anybody hear her? Can anybody see?

She is yearning
For shelter and affection
That she never found at home
She is searching
For a hero to ride in
To ride in and save the day
And in walks her prince charming
And he knows just what to say
Momentary lapse of reason
And she gives herself away

Does anybody hear her? Can anybody see?
Or does anybody even know she's going down today
Under the shadow of our steeple
With all the lost and lonely people
Searching for the hope that's tucked away in you and me
Does anybody hear her? Can anybody see?

If judgment looms under every steeple
If lofty glances from lofty people
Can't see past her scarlet letter
And we've never even met her
Never even met her

She is running a hundred miles an hour in the wrong direction

2009-02-21T06:58:00.004+08:00

PHOENIX FEST'S OVER!

thanks to supporters.
and gosh,
there was a whole load of ppl at the hard court.
nervous wreckdown.

introducing my "husband" fred for the night...
(my abusive husband in the drama)

my best dance pal clement san!

bleaghs.

my "descendant" who acts like me too!...=p

*piang*

chao qun, me and leanne smiling away!

my two lovely seniors.

spice girls.

was tryin out diff fonts...
hope they like it=p

2009-02-21T03:32:00.001+08:00

i so wanna learn this dance!

2009-02-20T03:35:00.002+08:00

was just wondering a few days ago.
tat ppl in this world are all born with different talents.
so isn't it unfair if we start comparing ourselves to others,
thinkin we're realli worst off
due to e lack of proficiency in one area?

humans are non-comparable.
we all excel in one area or another.

you witness that especially in hall.
whereby ppl with all sorts of talents emerge.
and you realise you're not the best after all.
but yet, that's not the reason you should escape.

yes, yuko.
face it and grow stronger.
stop being a jack of all trades and master of none.

2009-02-19T01:03:00.000+08:00

do i look happier or does she?
haha.

2009-02-16T19:03:00.000+08:00

yay!
i love presentations..
=)

in the midst of restoring relationships.

2009-02-16T05:41:00.004+08:00

我怕我失去我自己

像摔壞的玩具該怎麼逢捕空洞的眼睛

想哭找不到理由哭

呼吸已經麻痺一百個謊言是我的面具

到底誰來救贖這封閉的世界

我不想孤獨面對我自己我脫離一切

終於我找到了你就像一朵不凋零的花

我的心像被你擁抱的小孩

你就是愛永遠不會更改 ﹝完全明白你的真愛﹞

終於我找到了你就像一朵不凋零的花

我的心像被你擁抱的小孩

讓過去從悲傷變成美麗的雲彩

你就是愛永遠不會更改我終於找到你

2009-02-15T21:58:00.003+08:00

exciting.

whoohoo.

2009-02-15T20:10:00.000+08:00

ultimate slacker i've become.

2009-02-15T06:17:00.004+08:00

thanks to pastor kong,
i learnt alot about being a great partner in life ytd.
great msg preached.
=)

dinner was at pizza place.

cheezy wedges.

seafood carbonara linguini.

triple cheese pizza.

mrt picture!

happy val day...=)

NOW, FOR SOME RANDOM SHOTS.

my fav red bean milk ice.

my lovely tuition kid's pri school photo=p

2009-02-12T23:02:00.000+08:00

yuko.
hates herself.

2009-02-12T20:26:00.000+08:00

learnt this new method of making a speech.
there are three ways to it.

first, you tell them what you're going to tell them.
second, you tell them.
third, you tell them what you just told them.

2009-02-12T18:35:00.004+08:00

finalli...emcc concert is over!
haha..
the performances felt real short.

but a real blast off it was.
thanks to all choreographers for makin it so great.
and to my fellow dance mates who made it with me.
not forgettin the always-so-supportive ppl who & screamed for us!
=)

FIRST, BIGGEST THANKS TO CLEMENT MY DANCE SOUL-MATE!
(thanks for being there, all the time.
i can never say how much i thank you)

smileees.

this guy has one tons of expressions.

john! i miss him soooo much as usual.

my choreographer aka 3 same items dancemate.

and another choreographer who gave me CHARLIE.

my two dearest.

e405 thanks for comin!

i finally got to perform with her again.
(i hate how she looks so pretty beside me...haha=p)

my ever-supportive neighbour and her bf!

sexy babes and macho hunks.

BLAST LAH!!!

2009-02-11T02:30:00.002+08:00

arashi member!

2009-02-08T01:46:00.000+08:00

i hate my limbs.
its short.
and weak.

2009-02-07T18:31:00.001+08:00

2009-02-07T17:25:00.002+08:00

budyy pic!
(HE FINALLY ORD-ed)

showing off my ultra duper uper...
big bread!!!

2009-02-07T14:37:00.004+08:00

hold on tight.
keep on going.
dun give up.

was just browsing thru old pictures..

WE WERE SERIOUSLY QUITE LAME.

2009-02-06T01:56:00.000+08:00

finalli.
im reunited....with my laptop.

2009-02-02T02:38:00.004+08:00

sem's family finally flew back.

haven't you ever wondered...

in life,
how we tend to not treasure what we have.
how we always take things for granted.
how we never seem to see the importance of ur loved ones.

and i'm guilty of it.
seems like i dun realli treasure mine after all.
i promise i will.
from now on.

so great a yearning to move back home.
asap.

PA's dance practice taught me, to relax.
doing things in a hurry won't help much.

weina,
hope i helped somehow or rather by being there todae.

dance babes.

to clement...

thanks for being there, my fren.

thanks to thomas, i got a new shoe..
for alvan's item!
haha...

(i added the laces myself=p)

2009-02-02T02:03:00.000+08:00

my fav garden patty subway...

Calories 390
Protein (g) 24
Carbohydrates (g) 56
Sugar 7
Fat (g) 8
Sat. Fat (g) 1.5
Cholesterol (mg) 10
Sodium (mg) 1030
Dietary Fiber (g) 7

2009-02-01T00:14:00.005+08:00

todae onwards,
i shall learn to blog in a different way.

1.use more vocabs
2. stop blabbin about my life events
3. be more proficient in my english
4. prevent singlish

yup.

i learnt a great story at service:

there was this lady who just lost her job,
and was walkin on the streets back hm when she got robbed.
she lost ALL her belongings.
all the money she had with her,
all the accessories she wore,
everything on her.

dejected and sad,
she headed to report her case at the police station,
finally heading back home after that.

She was tired, exhausted and had no mood for anything else.

Then,
this old lady beggar who was holding a big bowl came up to her.
and asked for her donation.

"I just lost all that i had,
I have not a single cent on me now
and now you still want to get money from me?" the woman thought.
She couldn't take it anymore.
Feeling frustrated, angered, fumed...
she just bursted at the old beggar.

The old beggar just listened.
She listened to all the complaints and grumblings the woman had to say.
But,
She did not do anything.
She understood the woman's sufferings.

Instead, she reached into her pocket,
took out the last penny she had,.
and gave it to the lady.
" This is the last coin i have with me. It's all that i have...Take it." she said.

Witness the power of giving.

it's been long since i've met my biz pal jiahui.
and here's a photo of her n her twin!

TELL ME THEY dun LOOK ALIKE.

sem's youngest sister got me this! ain't it cute????

2009-01-31T02:29:00.002+08:00

was just browsing thru some blogs.
and mavis's words struck me.
picked from a author:

Do you know what most people’s number one challenge is when it comes to making positive personal changes? — It is their feelings. They want to change, but they dont know how to get pass their emotions. But there is a way to do it. Take a look at the truth contained in the following syllogism:

Major Premise: I can control my thoughts.
Minor Premise: My feelings come from my thoughts.
Conclusion: I can control my feelings by controlling my thoughts.

If you are willing to change your thinking, you can change your feelings. If you change your feelings, you can change your actions. And changing your actions — based on good thinking — can change your life.

Dont ever be too impressed with goal setting.

Be impressed with goal getting.

2009-01-31T01:48:00.004+08:00

just came back from dance.
happy bdae sim yee!

lessons todae were...draggy.
but still,
i managed to bring my laptop to the IT coop.
and freak.

harddisk failure.
need to reformat.
and i can only get it back next thur.
sobx.

"i will do it." attitude. it's important.

learnt new steps and danced with our lovely blindfolds todae!

bdae girl sim yee...

waDDDAaaaHH! ninjas.
(notice we're wearin specs)

2009-01-30T15:29:00.001+08:00

i've decided.
to be a volunteer for ASL.
after i move out of hall.

2009-01-30T15:10:00.001+08:00

another tutorial which i went for.
and realised it starts next week.
darn.

i think probabilities are interesting.
how about you?
=)

2009-01-30T02:13:00.000+08:00

only human by K

They say there's a smile waiting on the other side of sadness

They say there's a smile waiting on the other side of sadness
What awaits us when we arrive there?

When I started on this journey on that far away summer day
It was supposed to be to chase my dreams, not to run away

If I could only see tomorrow, there'd be no more sighs
Like a boat struggling against the flow
Right now I've got to keep going

They say happiness awaits at the end of pain
I'm still searching for an out-of-season sunflower

With my hands balled into fists, I wait for the dawn
With red fingernail marks and shining tears falling

If I've become used to the loneliness, I'll use the moonlight
And fly with featherless wings
I've got to keep going further

If the rain clouds have parted, the wet road will be shining
Only the darkness can teach us
About the strong, strong light
I've got to keep going stronger

2009-01-30T02:00:00.000+08:00

there are some ppl which u just,
can never forget.

some memories,
which you'll never let go.

some moments/actions,
which you regret you never took.

yet,
we've gotta learn to appreciate all that we gave up.
in order to have what we have today.

2009-01-30T00:39:00.000+08:00

freak.
my com crashed.
for real.

2009-01-29T13:57:00.002+08:00

i have decided to make a new resolution.
and do my best to keep to it.

DRINK AT LEAST 2 CUPS OF WATER A DAY.

2009-01-29T13:54:00.000+08:00

stupid laptop screwed up.
lucky got sem's help.
haha.

2009-01-29T09:30:00.006+08:00

uploadin photos!

2nd day of cny...
at big uncle's house.

my prospective sister-in-law!

junko tan n i cam-whoring.

my most wei da cousin cum makeup artist company boss.

doesn't my 2nd uncle look super benevolent?=p

ON THE WAY TO RESTAURANT...

*pokes*

*pokes* again.

AT THE RESTAURANT!

i like the prawn roll
(looks like goreng pisang)

lovely flower carved out of a carrot.

oh yeah...this is the prawn roll.

cod fish!
(with ginseng???)

it's my cousin's bdae!haha.

AFTER TAT...GAMBLING DENS...

HUAT arh!!!

MEETING SEM'S FAMILY..

fui is super cool.like some rock star=p

ok...both rock stars.

i like the colour of this pic..

sem's 3 wondersisters.

just wondering around..

whooooo.i like this.

and the night scenery rawks.

2009-01-28T00:15:00.006+08:00

yay!
back in hall again.
relaxing in my lovely chair.

thanks to clara for helpin me hang the ornament!
haha.
im too short,
as you can deduce.

anyway my new year was fab.

on new year's eve day,
went to fetch sem's family at the airport.
my first time seein them!
haha.
friendly and nice peeps they are!

on the mrt...

den after sending them to chinatown,
and handin over the situation to jen,
i rushed back home to do spring cleaning!
not forgetting to get some KOI bubble tea for mummy n kor.
=p

junko n i cleaned hard.
till all was sparkly.
whoo.

new year's eve dinner was japanese shabu shabu.
basically most of it was beef and prawns.
and of course, vegetables.
but it was nice!
different too!

shabu shabu!

thanks to sem for comin over to eat with us!
=)

so that night,
junko n i played Wii games till late in the morning.
oops.

i created ukyo my character!=)

=p

woke up at 8am plus the next day,
went back to hall to prepare b4 headin home to join my family.
and we went on our usual routine!
(setting off later than planned as usual=p)

random photos..

random photo number 2.

my beloved mummy!

to visit and pray at 3 temples every year was a routine.
but this time,
the last one we went to was fully packed.
to the brim.
i wonder why GUAN YIN MIAO is so popular.

act cool.

dumbo 3 sisters.

family templing!

anyway we headed down to popo's house after that.
phew.
long time since i've been there.
saw all my uncles and aunties..
lao-ed yusheng 2nd time, with abalone..
steamboat again.

yu sheng...with abalone!

and hurried down to meet sem's family at clarke quay.
watched and sight-see-ed stuff.

i took this pic of sem...cool huh.

den headed back to bangjie's house.
visited him and his family.
while they played mahjong...
long time no see, my childhood fren!
pretty girlfren u have there too!
haha...
and i realised she's from ntu MJ dance!
=)

rushed back home ard midnight.
to play Wii with junko.

2nd day,
same thing,
went back home to prepare in morning.
earlier than ytd.
but when i got back home...sighx.
my family rocks in waking up late and delaying time.
haha.

anyway we cabbed down as usual to big uncle's house.
where the real angbao and greeting session started.
every year, we've gotta rem one thousand names..
with uncles and aunties, their kids, and their grandkids...
phew.

but i had a fun time!
haha.
talked quite abit to dulcia(my kor's gf)..
den we all took diff cars to the restaurant for the day!
88 restaurant at harbourfront tower 2.

i would never ever recommend this restaurant,
and so wun the others i bet.
service was ultimately POOR.
the waitress, apparently the manager,
was super impatient and hasty.
not to add bad tempered and rude too.
and the food...it was so-so.
=(

but i still loved the times i spent with my relatives.
and how we all travelled to 2nd uncle's house after tat..
where the "gambling dens" all opened.
haha.

it's the festive season!
experience the atmosphere!

hurried down to esplanade to meet sem and his family..
walked the whole place,
takin loads of pics at the merlion..
den also at the RIVER ANG BAO!
haha..
nicenice...

had dinner at gluttons bay,
and thanks to sem,
i got a packed mee goreng..

i'm so excited to eat it now..
so...
shall upload more pics of 2nd day tml?
haha...

yummy!

yay!

2009-01-25T02:18:00.002+08:00

thanks to dx and kai.
for offering ur ears
=)

anyway had service todae.
awesome msg.
im so proud of being a chinese now.
gosh.

rushed back to holland v.
had hor fun with da!
nice nice...

went back to hall to choose new year clothes.
before kai came to fetch me.
that guy...
threw me with 2 rolls of wrapping paper,
plus one humongous playstation game kit.
and i wrapped it up while he doodled with dx's time downstairs.
thanks to jiaying n marvin who helped too!
haha.
got an ice cream cake for him from swensens.
yay.
i love PROs gang.

let's keep our promise.
and continue to stay that bonded yup?
=)

2009-01-23T23:35:00.003+08:00

im sorry for complaining but somehow,yup..

i wonder why sometimes i even bother to make the effort.
as a friend,
to show my care and concern.
to be there to support.
to always help out in times of need.
to show that i'm there.

i thought that's what a friend should do.
or at least fulfil.
learning to express how one feels for a friend,
its not an easy thing.
yet whatever i learnt does not seem to be of much use.

all i get in return
is e feeling of being a pathetic nobody to others.
is e feeling of being alone in the end.
is e feeling of being needed only when others need help.
is e feeling that i'm not as important a friend since there are alternatives.

in times when i'm freaking tired and devastated,
nothing seems to be repaying.
instead feeling left out.

It's just the feeling that whatever i've done,
it's all TAKEN FOR GRANTED.

i miss u clement.
i miss walking back together to hall after dance.
i miss how we always share all the troubles & exhaustion & complaints after dance.
i miss how we always help out & wait for each other.

i just dun have the mood now.
not even the appetite to eat anything,
even though im like super hungry.
haha.

hate it when i feel dreadful of being part of hall.
makes me miss my outside frens who treasure me more.

yuko...
not wanting to eat?
miracle.

2009-01-23T15:45:00.001+08:00

to someone out there,
here's a song to you:

THANK YOU by Christina Millan

Verse 1

Once upon a time I walked an easy road
Didn't think I needed anyone.
I could make it on my own
Never thought about tomorrow, just livin' day to day
Never thought these clouds would come along
And bring me so much pain
When my world was upside down
I didn't think that I could make it,
Reached out my hand for you
And you were there to take it

Chorus
I wanna thank you
For being my strength when I thought I couldn't go on
And I wanna thank you
For showing me right when my heart was leading me wrong
For all the times I was lost and my soul was blind
And I didn't know what to do
Somehow you pulled me through – and I wanna thank you

[ Find more Lyrics at www.mp3lyrics.org/39ww ]
Verse 2
When I was down and on my knees,
Looked up and you were there –
Somehow you knew and found me
You were the answer to my prayers
You shined a light when it was dark,
And opened up my eyes
You led the way when I was lost
And you helped me realize
That I will never walk alone, cause you'll be by my side
I don't know what I'd ever do without you in my life

Bridge
With every step I take
You show me there's a way
And in your hands, my heart will never go astray
So each and every day....I wanna....

I wanna thank you
Thank you for the love you gave me
And every time you were there to save me
Thank you for being right by my side
When I thought that I couldn't make it
Reached out my hand
You were there to take it
Thank you for being here in my life
For all of the joy

2009-01-23T15:22:00.001+08:00

ok wat the hell was i thinkin in the past..
to have come up with such crap stuff:

next time if u kana detention,
say this to ur teacher:
"the reason for my being on detention is that
i was talkin in class,
and therefore,allegedly,
disrupting the learning of others.
I would respectfully argue that the only student
whose learning i was disrupting was my friend's.
The word 'disrupt' suggests some force and,
given that she was a willing participant in the discussion,
technically my behaviour was not 'disruptive' at all

With this in mind,
& with the highest regard to the teacher,
I would point out that the act of removing us from the classrm
and then allowing us to return was more disruptive to the class,
as a whole, than the actions
that caused us to be removed in the 1st place."